New sunrise, new day, new life

6am. Jay couldn't sleep more. It had been so long since he had visited the Astro tower for the las time...but it was just because it reminded him too much of Reyna and he had been trying to thing the less possible about her. But that morning he felt the urge to go there and see the sunrise.

When he got there it was still dark, but the first sun rays were appearing above the mountains. He really didn't know when had his life been more such a mess. If now, or before when he wasn't sure for his feelings about so many people. At least then he had everyone in his life...now it only was Emmy, and Fallon, the most important though, but it hurt loosing people.

He was going to Edinburgh after his graduation, he was leaving maybe forever, and he still hadn't told anything to Emmy, anyways she'd had to spend one more year in the castle, but he wanted her to move with him when she graduated. And he was leaving...away from Gwen, exactly how she wanted, exactly how she had tried him to do. But he wouldn't use any stupid trick to make her forget him. He was leaving honestly and with his head lifted up, it was up to her if she wanted to forget him or not. He would save the few memories he had about them well saved in his mind, and wouldn't let anyone take them off of there.

And there he was, alone, watching the sunrise, feeling the urge of running away, even jumping down the tower...but he wouldn't. He had too many reasons to stay. He had, not like Gwen, she had but didn't want to accept them. A dissapointed sigh left his lips with that las thought.

Pam snuck onto the Astronomy tower, wanting to be alone to settle her thoughts. She was pregnant, and so far the only ones who knew where Micah's family and Pat.

Rounding a corner, she saw Jay and deliberated whether it would be worth it to turn around or not. She knew that if she talked to him, it would slip out.

Jay was lost in his thoughts, but some steps warned him and he turned aroud quickly to find Pam there. She looked like she hadn't slept much in the las days and she didn't seem to be really happy.

"Pam, are you okay?" he asked with a worried frown, approaching her.

Darn it! she thought as Jay approached her. Faking a smile, she said, "I'm fine Jay. Sorry if I disturbed you, you looked deep in thought."

Just keep the conversation away from yourself and you'll do fine, she thought. Of course, it really didn't help that she was a horrible liar.